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i did my pae liao.... hiya sianz ah... tml onwards until 5th going on a mad travelling spree liaoz... wonder wad i shld get for my frenz... hmmmm although exchange rate is 1 to 19, my dad say the stuff there r ex..... hmmmmmm... i'm tokin onphone wif el now.... she remem abt pae, budden forgot abt the PIN no on the form a. coz she needs to use the com at her father's office to get to the net, coz her modem at home is X___x.. if she forget to bring her form a to her dad's office she'll die... haha... hiya diz one needs a lot of reminders... wonder how she'll suffer w/o us... hmmm hope she does well... mel going to m'sia on sun... see how she does for her interview... so she may or may not come back for prom... hmmm wish i could see her again....
hiya sianz... ah bao doing her pae now... eh... for me ah.. i dun even noe wad to put beyond the 3rd choice.. how to do??? havent discuss wif cyn dear yet... sighz... dun really feel like putting any choice after the 3rd... hiya budden i will still put in the end lah... mum tell me to anyhow put... eh... dun exactly like tt idea... anyway i juz realized tt i do haf loads of bags at home... juz tt i din noe they existed coz my mum kept tt in some stupid corner in her cupboard... eh... oso due to my forgetfulness lah... heehee anyway leaving real soon... sighz gonna miss everyone here...
hiya so sad... things havent really been in my way... the class reunion i've been waiting for is on diz fri!!! n i'm going m'sia on the same day!!! :'( y so unlucky one!! wah lao... after we go jc i tell u sure no time one... argh.... huh... den lidat i'll miss the chance of seeing them for probably the last time?!?! *sObZ*
well well want to go wif cyn to kbox leh... budden mum dun wanna let me go... hmmmm i shall try n bug her today w/o getting us on bad terms again... hmmm today went back to sch for last time to get testimonal, grad cert, form a etc... n guess wad... as usual, pk got me n cyn mixed up, n when she copied n pasted cyn's para on choir, she forgot to change the name to mine! so splat in the middle of my testimonal a someone called cynthia... argh!!n thing is today she's not in sch, so i gotta get it on another day.. like when? n all our photos r still wif her, when she said she was going to return them to us today... well, mebbe she had to rush our testimonals out, so she fell sick... hope she's ok... anywayz, going to m'sia frm 28 to 30 nov, den to taiwan frm 1-5dec so i will disappear frm here on these days loh cya soon!
well sorry, yesterday v bad mood.... anyway went shopping today again... leg v poor thing.... hiya v sian everyday.... v sian.... budden ah i got no time to go online, no time to listen to new cd... v cham leh... hiya so stupid... budden ah v good, my father like v halfheartedly want to shop for clothes lidat leh... he v good lah... clothes all haf holes liao still dun wanna buy new ones... i tink he wants to freeze to death liao.. haha.... oh nvm... but me n my mum r not intending to freeze leh.... hiya dunno lah... n i cannot find shoes lah so infuriating... nice one too tall, den i cannot wear, if not i bang railings everyware.... when i finally found the shoe i want, which if of correct ht, den dun haf my size... arghhhhhhhhhh
do i really look as tho i overspend n spend my parents' hardearned money on stupid stuff? it's starting to dawn on me tt i really am loh.... it seems to b tt i'm juz spending money like no one's business n like letting the tap flow lidat... i'm just a teenager; i need a life like one. i noe i'm not rich, i noe my family is not rich, i noe we r having a hard time trying to pay the monthly instalments for the house, i noe tt money is not easily earned, i noe money doesnt fall frm the sky. so looks like i'm asking too much to buy cds n buy a hp n go overseas wif choir lah. i'm just being inconsiderate, a total idiot who doesnt care abt the house shattering lah. i noe all these r not necessities... ah duh. i admit, i'm spending money unnecessarily happy. how often do i get to splurge once? how much do i get to splurge at one go? 100 or 1000? i noe she doesnt go around buying this n buying tt for herself n i noe i'm starting to do tt by buying cds tt she doesnt noe how to listen to, so i'm wrong in spending money on myself loh. issnt tt wad she's trying to say? we had a tiff n now we seem to b ok but i noe we're not. once i buy another cd she's going to go mad again. i noe money doesnt come by easily, i noe my father goes ard splurging like no one's business n giving money to everyone as tho he's a millionaire, she's afraid tt i will become lidat. but i've got my own thinking. i dun go ard spending thousands of dollars at a go. i noe wad she says is right; ji shao cheng duo. but wad makes her think tt i'm going to end up like my father wif cds tt even the cd rack which is the same ht as my tv can't store all of them? i haf some sense why can't she juz understand diz? i haf sense to not spend so much money until we go n live on the streets; i haf sense to wear more clothes when it's cold; i haf sense to close the windows when it's pouring; i haf sense to look at the situation b4 me n make changes to improve it. i'm not a 3 yr old kid anymore. true, i'm an only child, i'm a girl, but wad's wrong wif tt? i noe i face stress tt i can't stand, i noe i'm vulnerable, i noe i'm easily hurt, so does tt make me someone who's supposed to stay at home n lose contact wif the world? i juz want to live a life tt i want to live, i juz want to experience wad ppl of my age experiences. i dun want to wait until i'm 60 den come n buy cds. tt's absurd. but of coz i wun let myself end up on the streets when i'm 60. tt's absurd too. i've lost too much in the past bcoz i'm living a life my mum wants me to live. i've lost so much tt i'm losing confidence. i dun want to continue lidat. is wad i'm doing wrong?
hiya now tt hols come den realize i got nthg to write here loh.... coz no stress, no studies, no nthg... so nthg to write loh... eh... going out wif cyn tml... woohoooo budden i tink it will b quite tiring... hiya who cares... now i'm slacking until wah lao... really damn slack man... kenneth suggested i go n learn sthg... like musical instrument... hmmm budden frm who leh? my fren juz told me abt a famous amos job business... they r hiring ppl! not bad leh... at specialist place n tampines... tampines too far lah... specialist still can consider.. she say got walk in interview frm 22nd onwards... ppl wanna go n try?
well it's been a loooooooong time ever since i last stepped in here to tok... overall os was ok... i'm so glad it's all over... like wake up frm nitemare lidat... haha.... i'm quite sure i wun b able to get 10A1s.... hmmm coz of my jap n eng.... they would probably land in A2 or B3... i guess i really need to tink how to spend my hols leh yoohoooooooooooooooooooo...
oh well... today's jap wasnt v nice... erm.... dun hope too much... oh no i juz found out tt the career seminar registration is by today! hoolooloo... ok muz go n do tt survey to register now.. den later muz study bio n jap... i tink i will die.. but nvm...
today's amaths was quite a nice piece of cake to eat.. hmmm... tml's phy... suan le ba... eh.... den the rest of the papers muz ganbatte! shuo dao ganbatte... my jap... argh... anywayz, i feel so sick of everything... wanting to play liao loh....
well the chinese paper today was ok... wasnt too bad... hmmm... but i'm slacking now again n singing qing tian... hiya... now already 10+... wad u want me to do?? anyway today those 5 crazy ppl came to my house to go mad.... in betw chinese... 3 of us in living rm... 3 in my bedrm... oh well as usual we didnt manage to study anything much... we were almost late.... oh my... juz when can they juz come to my hse n not bother if they r late or not?? sighz... really dreaming abt wad's going to happen liao loh.. ah i dun want os!!!!!!
tml is chinese paper... so far the papers still ok loh.... hmmm now slacking loh... heehee... budden nvm lah... i noe i wun slack for long... my chinese good is good, budden if i dun study, esp the sec 4 syllabus i will die... n el v good... lose her sec 2 n 4 ci yu shou ce... den how she study ah?? she better haf some brains to buy.. later she juz worry n worry n dun do a thing abt it... sighz... alaba.... we r nearly half way thru our exams yoohoooooooo dreaming of going to chalet n beach n cycling n shopping n watching movies n going online to chat until 1am n watching tv which starts at 11+ n making friendship bands n writing my diary n oh my i haf so many things to do... but of coz i still muz study a bit for jlpt n sat... eh... n of coz i will slack n do nthg for quite a few days... probably stick myself in front of the com... haha.. ok gotta go n study liao lah... 1230 liao...
hiya every time i say i heck of coz i ended up not hecking. i won't allow myself to die juz lidat. want to die oso muz die for a good cause, not diz...
i'm juz sick n tired... nvm.... let's heck.